Diabetes Blog Week

As I continue this journey with my unwelcome guest, diabetes, I learn new stuff all the time.

November is diabetes awareness month.

The American Diabetes Association and the Juvenile Diabetes Research Foundation are both good organizations with differing philosophies.

Some DNEs don't like it when you read or ask questions.

And this week is Diabetes Blog Week. This is the time of year when we are supposed to look around, find blogs that we like and share them.

So here we go.

My favorite diabetes blog is the first one I found. I was desperately looking for coping strategies, when I found Six Until Me by Kerri Sparling. At the time she was pregnant and discussing the trials and tribulations of her diabetic pregnancy, which at times made me weep. She has a nice, light style, and she evidently blogs for a living.

The next blog that I bookmarked was Typical Type 1 by Jacquie Paul Wojcik. She reminds me of what a grown-up M might be like. She drinks beer. She leaves her nasty test strips lying around. She is witty and insightful about the reactions of others to Type 1.

The only other diabetes blog I have on my bookmark sheet is Death of a Pancreas by Joanne, a Canadian immigrant who now lives in Texas. Her daughter is much younger than M, and even though we have never had a direct conversation, she and I do check out each other's blogs. She to look a little into the future, and I to remember that I am not the only insane diabetes momma out there. I discovered Joanne's blog when Kerri posted the video "What NOT to say to the parent of a Type 1 diabetic", which is hilarious if you run in diabetic circles.

I tried to get M to blog about her experiences. I thought other kids might benefit from her discoveries as a diabetic. She gave it a shot. I think she posted about 6 or seven one paragraph posts. But I realized that I wanted her to do it more than she wanted to do it.

Then I realized that I wanted to do it.

So here we are, nearly two years and 98 posts later, still babbling about the diabetic experience from a parental point of view.

I am always giddily pleased when I run into someone and they say that they have read my blog. So to those of you who have been reading it: Thanks! Even if one reader out there has learned more about diabetes, then we are one person closer to dispelling the myths and making life easier for other diabetics. And I appreciate that.

Keep reading, my friends!

Ups, Downs, and Opinions

Shortly after M switched to Novolog, she also began lacrosse season, which usually requires a couple of weeks of adjustment.

I am pretty sure that the timing could not have been worse.

Having two major changes in lifestyle make the diabetic body, let's just say, unpredictable.

Her blood sugar was a mess. 32! 595! 31! 536! AHHHHHH!

This change and unpredictability sparked a lot of debate and discussion among those of us who were responsible for M's care.

First it was the DNE, who told me that "insulin is insulin", and that any change that was occurring must have to do with her renewed exercise levels. I disagreed, knowing that we have made this change before, and it was never quite this erratic. I did wonder if maybe M was eating food that I didn't know about, but she assured me that she was not.

Then the school nurse decided to chime in. "You need to get that insulin changed back! Ask the insurance company to change it! They will make an exception if there is a reaction that is detrimental to her health!"

The athletic trainer agreed. "It was not this bad before! It must be the insulin!"

I found these forceful declarations unfair.

I was exhausted. I was checking M's bg levels every two hours around the clock. I was stressed. I was tired. I actually became weepy a work. My coworker suggested that I take a mental health day after she asked me how M was doing, and I welled up at the thought of my daughter and her unpredictable results. I wondered daily which child I would be coming home to: the pasty gray-faced child, or the insane cranky child who felt defensive about her test results.

My diabetic students told me to hang in there; that I was doing the right thing. Monitoring bg levels regularly would give me the information that I needed.

M and I decided to give it a month. After two weeks of bi-hourly monitoring, we adjusted her basal rate rather aggressively, up in some places, down in others.

Happily, after about 4 weeks, we are back within our "normal" range.

But let me tell you, having everyone give me, a strung out parent, different advice just about sent me over the edge. I understood each point of view, and they all reflected my own guesses as to what was going on. I felt defensive any time someone felt that they could give me an absolute answer.

There are no absolute answers, no matter who thinks that just one thing will make a person's body go from insane to normal.

I knew in my gut that it had to be a combination of factors.

And while that reasoning and very careful monitoring paid off, I still feel that it would be inappropriate to tell people that they were only partially right.

Saying, "I am smarter than you are," just seems a little rude.

I may even be smarter than this car!